haha... actually i jz wanna write something and i dunno wad title to put... so, that's a title lah...hahahaha~xD

THANK YOU MY DEAR SIS FOR CALLING ME UP TO WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY... LOVE U TO BITS...^^

some how, i feel motivated to write something here... but i dun really noe wad to write... hmm...
my life's boring... nothing going on...

let's see...
i cant slep, and i'm wide awake...
therefore i'm facing my blog and typing something...
at the same time listening to songs...
hoping to get some inspiration from them songs~

i'm not sure wad i'm typing nw, but i noe its words i'm typing... and not some alien language which goes...bubaa-lloea sisico-laladu... or wadever tat means...lol~~xD

ouu yeaa~~!!.. i've got soft copy of novels on my hp~!!(thks Silvia) hehehe.. now i no nid to bring bulky novels around...^.^

i dunno whether u'll read this, but in regards to one of the small topic on ur blog...
what i noe is that confidence is something that u nid to build by yourself...
u cant juz suddenly wake up one morning and "BOOM" u r confident~!!
how u build u might ask... that's actually up to how u figure a way to build it...
it cn be through shows like 'Queer eye for a straight guy'(i love those gay guys, they r juz hilarious)~?? or mayb picking up some details from 'America's next top model'? or mayb by going to the saloon and telling the hair dresser... 'change my hair style...' or mayb going to a gym n tone up ur body... or mayb juz by looking at the mirror and telling urself~ 'you are juz marvelous'... i dunno~ there are many ways... and its up to u to figure out ur own way...

one of my ways is, everytime i lost confidence in myself... i'll tell myself~
'are u gonna chicken out and lose the chance then regret not doing it?? or are u gonna just do it n come out to tell the story and have no regrets...'

depending on situations though... sometimes it goes like this~
'look.. the result will either be yes or no, gud or bad, pass or fail, etc... either way its a 50-50 chance... so just go for it... at least u tried~ rather then not trying and not knowing wad is the outcome... who noes the result might be positive??? if its negative then learn from it and do better next time~'
sometimes its lik this~
'go ahead and make the 1st move, he/she won't bite...'

the most important is u lived it and come out knowing that others have not...
of course making that 1st step is not easy, but do u want to feel regret NOT making the 1st step?? or are u gonna take the 1st step and live to tell the story??

this world, there is 2 type of ppl...
Leaders and Followers
who u wan to be?? a follower or a leader???

live life to the fullest, coz u'll only live it once...=)

cheers,
lu shen

haih... nothing to blog abt la...@.@
so bored...

ouuu~~
watched 2012 on PPStream...
hehehe...

i wonder if 'that' will happen at the year 2012? or later... or before...
seriously scary~~

*scared*
but then, dying i a natural thing...
and i admit, i am scared of dying...>.<
who's not...@.@

but being able to die wit the ones u love will make everything different...
however, of course if there is an option other then dying... take it~!!!..>.<

haha... next movie... new moon?? =P

cheers,
lu shen

reports~~@.@
haiii~~!! >>_<<

have to finish it up fast so that mom cn check my spellings n all...
but then the mood to do is juz not there...
haih, cham loorh~@.@

mood arh mood... come come...=P
*like calling dog... lol~xD

go eat lunch 1st...=P

cheers,
lu shen

haha...
THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL THE WISHES..=)
really touching to see all of the wishes coming in...=)

well, i'm officially 21 now...
feeling so old liaoo larh~T.T
anyway, begining of 20yrs only.. hahaha... stil young stil young...>.<

celebrated wit parents at home today...
had a great steamboat dinner and cake..=)
its been ages since i last celebrated my bday wit a cake... haha..
a tiramitsu cake to round up the dinner...
splendid..^^

i didnt really take much pics... coz its really messy in my hse kitchen...>.<
and oso, nothing much to see la..haha...
drink alot... wanna drink wine later...hehehe...xD
come on~~...
21 at this hour... i'm suppose to be wasted ...@.@
but i'm not... argh~~
i'll leave tat for the hse party later on...=P

its 11:57pm nw...
so fast end..T.T
i dun wan today to end so fast lerhh...

time really flies...
looking bak at the days of my childhood...
i still remember me running around my old apartment area playing wit kids from other families...
swinging on the monkey bars...
jumping around...
sitting and eventually STANDING on swings... yea... standing...haha
hide and seek...
years later... moved out of tat area...
went to somewhere without monkeybars, swings, see-saws, and all those fun stuff... really bored...
after tat, cycling in the afternoon after class was a must-do...
everday without fail i'll be cycling wid my fren, exploring the areas arnd my hse...
and bak home after the sun's down...
then when i was in morning class... cycling in the afternoon was only done in the afternoon...
during holidays, me n my fren will cycle to the beach... which is almost 10 km away... crazy days tat was...
after tat, cycling was no more an interest... driving was~!!!... hahaha...
then, there was the mind-boggling days of SPM...

i was happy to see my name in the country's national service programme...
went through the 3 months stint... it was ok la~~ quite enjoy oso...

college was then the next step...
had my mind on wad i want and wher i wanna go..
so everything was short n sweet...^^

started a new life...
everything began frm scratch...
new ppl, new faces, new environment...
so many new things...
slowly coped with the changes...
suddenly, diploma was over...
along the way,
met that some special...
but things didnt turn well... and she there goes...
learnt alot frm it, and slowly things were not as bad anymore...

and now here i am...
still searching, still amending, and still hoping...
looking forward to another new year...
hopefully things wun turn out as bad as this yer... or mayb worst...T.T

"u were expecting that so called gud fren of urs would say something on ur bday... but instead, he remained silent... silent as a mouse... well, mayb he forgot... bahh~~ screw u... i've lost contact wit u anyway, so yea... wadever..."

cheers,
lu shen

P.S. mom wished for a boy and dad wished for a girl/boy... hahaha.. my green light...^^ *ting ting~~!!!!* [if u cn understan then gud for u, u r a fast thinking one... if u cnt catch wad i mean, hahaha... think again be4 asking me..=)its obvious...]

hehe... i was so touched when my fren told me...
'got u a bday present..'
@.@
non of me frens got me anything be4... so, yea.. tis fren was the 1st... howeverrr~~
i have it yet coz my fren is outstation and i'm suppose to there... but i'm suffering here wit my messed up ankle...T.T haih.. nvm la, looks like its fated lahh~~

arghhh~~
industrial training reportt~~!!!>.<
havent start yet... where is the mooddd~~~@.@
cannot la... today muz at least start something...


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"when there is no hope, there will be no disappointment"
but its really hard to not have hope...
after everything we've been through...
well~,
it's not much, but it was something...
i was hoping...
things will improve when i see u...
but...
looks like nothing will happen...
so,
this is it i guess...
lets juz say...
its not the time...

cheers,
lu shen

i got my Nokia E71 d~~!!!!
super happy...
thks dad...=)

well, he dun spoil me... but this one is special so i got the request...^^
and till now i still cnt believe it sometimes...
i look at the hp, and i think to myself... am i dreaming~???@.@

but i'm sure i'm not...WAKAKAKAKAKA~~xD
now i can go on9 to facebook anytime as long as got free wifi arnd...^^
and oso access to the internet in times of emergency... dun ask me what emergency, coz i oso dunno... when the time comes, automatically i'll noe IT'S an emergency...lol~

juz spent 1 hr++ fixing up my song list on my hp...=P it seems tat the amount of songs i have inside is equals to 1 WHOLD DAY~!!!@.@ wow...
means i have 24 hrs of songs... tat's alot... but i bet there are ppl who have more then me... so yea...
and the best things is... although i have so much songs in my hp... but it wont take long to load... if it was the LG hp...hmph~ 217 songs inside took me 5 min to open the folder...@.@ damn...

up next... update my calender...^^ so tat i wun forget u guy's bday dates...=) and also my contact list...T.T there is much to do~~~...

cheers,
lu shen

whoaaaa~~T.T
super hot here in hometown...@.@

i day no rain lik tat d... die liao laa~~
anyway, been watching movies and on9 these few days... haih.. no mood to start report yet lerhhh~~~@.@

btw~~ gonna get my E71 this weekend... wiiiiii~~^^
cnt waitt~~>.<
hopefully all goes well... then can have it by this sat...>.<
excitedddd~~O.O

i have a bad feeeling tat something gonna happen... but juz dunno wad izit...>.<
how i wish i cn see the future...@.@

cheers,
lu shen